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So I walked until my feet went numb
and my mind kept racing from the pain
from the truth
from the thoughts…thoughts of us
My heart sank
to my feet
and I fell…and bruised my knees
I could not crawl
numbness over took me
I lay prostrate
hoping someone would see me
my heart…bleeding
my mind…sinking;
into the depth of the sea…
“…toss me back to shore… where I can breathe…”
hoping that someone would reach out
and save me
feel sorry for me
pity me
But no one did.
I lay there;
disillusioned about my entire life
existence
struggle
I thought
this pain would
devour me…then I forgot what I was aching from…
I forgot…I couldn’t remember
I cried out my fear and pain
and poured it into the sea
I was so worried about finding me
what brought me comfort by definition
or clarity in pain
Truth was rapidly approaching
choking the lie out of me
I…me… regardless of you…or them… or us…
I am me
In all my heartache
sin
bitterness
anger
fear
love me or not
I am me
Untitled
How much of this love is too much.
I wondered, and longed for you to love me, but now it is over.
Of all the days I missed you,
I miss you most today…
maybe ‘cause the sky is lined in pink and purple today…
or maybe ‘cause of the wind that blew in my car as I napped on my lunch
break.
No-- I do not long for you—that aching long…I simply miss you.
A miss…that is not sadness…just a miss.
You always aimed to satisfy.
Even in your absence…
the thought of you… brings satisfaction.
I miss you…
Not to be mistaken for that bitter kinda miss or the resentful kinda miss----just…
I miss you…
